Words.....by Nowra

just scribbling during cozy Sunday morning....

2011-10-23T09:58:00.002+08:00

To be honest, nobody reads my blog... but the main objective of doing this, is as my journal and for me to pour out what is on my mind and my heart. I have been reading other bloggers' blogs and seemed really2 interesting as their creativity made their blog colourful to read and follow. Since I love reading books, why not to love reading blogs. For me reading blogs has the same impact as reading books. There is a Malay saying "Yang baik dijadikan teladan, yang buruk dijadikan sempadan" which means we only adopt anything that is good and leave the bad thing on the other side. Well, true enough.

hehehe...quite surprising myself as I'm typing this in English (since my previous entries were in BM). One thing is clear that my mood in writing and speaking in English is there. Something like in season. Once it is there...shhuuupppp!!!! fluent! But when the season is gone... I started to stutter..hahaha... i know, not good for my career as I am actually teaching English in school... but to build up creativity, I myself read English materials such as books and blogs. There, again the positive side of reading blogs.

Yesterday I had a good conversation with my housemate who also a single lady like me.. we have the same view on being single. People like to take advantage on us for not having own family and give excuses that we have more time to do this and that. To be honest, even though we don't have what other ladies with family have, but we do the same chores and spend our time like other married people. No husband and children doesn't mean we don't have family. We still have parents to take care and pay bills on time every month. What we are lacking are, security and emotional comfort. Those subjects are our (single ladies like us)main concern. That is why you look at us like we are firm on our decision, because we have to protect ourselves. We think before we act. Then you'll come to know why I love books so much, because books, reading and knowledge are my emotional comfort. Does it sound weird? NOT! hahaha... so the moral of the story, don't look down on us unmarried people as we have our own strength and we might be stronger than you think, emotionally.

I wish I can put more pictures in my coming entries. but for now I just want to put this as one of my wishlists (God knows when will I get this! huuuuuu) till then, FAREFARREN PEEPS!

IT'S A BOOKBAG!!!!

CER CITER....

2011-08-20T22:25:00.006+08:00

Lama sungguh tak update blog. Bukan apa, gangguan banyak sangat sampaikan tak sempat nak berkarya...chewah! banyak sebenarnya cerita tapi kita slow2 lah ye...

Lagi seminggu aku akan terbang ke Kuching. Maklumlah, balik raya... persediaan diri dah 90%. Tapi takpe laa... slow2 la kan.. kebelakangan nih aku rasa macam tenang sangat. Kiranya aku dah dapat menerima keadaan diri seadanya. Apa2 pun aku tetap REDHA dengan ketentuan Ilahi. Kita merancang, Allah jua yang menentukan. Rasa2nya aku dah kalis dengan soal jodoh. Aku dah bersedia dengan jawapan yang bakal aku berikan kepada sesiapa yang sudi bertanyakan soalan "emas" itu. Nak tau jawapannya, try ler tanya.. haaa...cer citer!..cer citer!...

Alhamdulillah, berkat kesabaranku, ada jua hasilnya. Diharapkan agar hati ku sentiasa tetap dan fikiranku sentiasa posiitif menghadapi hari2 yang mendatang. Aku cuba kurangkan merungut, lebih berdisiplin dalam diri dan ibadat. Aku cuba memberi fokus kepada masa depan. berita terbaru, aku dikhabarkan untuk menghadiri taklimat Kursus Induksi yang aku nantikan selama ini. Insyallah, setelah melalui kursus dan lulus ujian induksi, aku harap proses pengesahan jawatan akan dapat dilakukan dengan segera. Bukan apa, senang nanti aku nak buat loan beli rumah. Insyaallah. Aku mohon belas kasihMu, Ya Allah! agar dipermudahkan urusan pengesahan jawatanku nanti... AMIN...

Apa2 pun yang bakal dilalui, aku jua berharap agar kursus tidak mengganggu urusan cuti2 bersama keluarga pada hujung tahun ini nanti. Dah lama aku menantikan saat untuk bertemu keluarga sebelah ibuku di JB. Semakin hari, semakin tebal rinduku pada mereka. Bila berbicara tentang rindu, aku mula merindui kebanyakkan perkara yang pernah aku lalui sepanjang hidupku terutamanya semasa zaman siswi. Rakan2 akrab di sepanjang pengajianku, waktu kuliah, bersengkang mata menghadapi peperiksaan dan membuat tesis. Aku rindukan masa di Taman Melati, di UPM, di KUK... semua aku rindu kerana dari situ aku mula kenal erti kehidupan. Benar2 diduga keimanan, walaupun begitu, bayangan keluarga tetap menjadi sempadan baik dan buruk dalam membuat keputusan. Alhamdulillah, dugaan menjadi mahasiswi di perantauan berjaya dilalui dengan penuh kemanisan.

Mungkin kalau aku bagitahu sesuatu, mesti korang takkan percaya. Aku seakan dapat recall balik perkara yang pernah belaku time umur aku di bawah 5 tahun. bagi sesetangah orang, kalau memori bawah 5 tahun tu susah nak ingat balik kan. Bagi aku, aku masih ingat banyak perkara. Tapi susah aku nak terangkan dalam bentuk penulisan. Walauapapun, aku tetap bersyukur kerana diberi ingatan yang masih baik. Mungkin itulah berkat ilmu. Wallahuallam.

Hobi aku masih diteruskan iaitu tak lain dan tak bukan.... MEMBACA! Sungguhpun begitu, aku mulai perlahan2 membaca buku novel melayu dan buku2 berbentuk ilmiah dan keagamaan. Mungkin jugak nak rehat dari membaca buku2 Bahasa Inggeris. Yang penting, bak kata Tok Imam dalam Geng Mengaji "BACA!...BACA!!!...BACA!... BACA!... BACA!.. agar tak diputuskan ilmu dengan kita.

Ok lah... perghh!!! panjang jugak entry kali nih... nanti kalau ade cer citer best ... akan ku update di lain masa.. farefarren peeps!

kisahku bukan kisahmu...

2011-05-14T14:38:00.001+08:00

dah lama tak update blog...bukannya apa, dalam keadaan yang serba kekurangan ni rasa berat pulak tangan nih nak menaip....macam2 masalah yang timbul. first of all, masalah air yang tak settle2 lagi... dah masuk 4 bulan masalah nih berlarutan... nak tau camne keadaan air kat tempat kitorang nih sekarang... sejak keadaan yang kemarau sekarang nih, air bagaikan dicatu2... bayangkan kalau mandi lambat kul 7 tu confirm air dah takde. lepas tu, air ada balik dari pukul 6 ptg sampai kul 10 malam...itu pun nasib kalau kul 10 malam, kadang2 kul 9 air dah tadak. sebab tu laa kitorang malas nak masak sebab tau2 je la kan, lepas masak barang yang diguna bukannya satu atau dua... tunggu petang baru dapat basuh semua2nya.

kalau korang perasan aku tulis blog nih pun dah nak dekat2 cuti je kan? hahahaha.... entah laa... mood tu macam lain sikit. sebabnya happy nak balik kot. kebelakangan ni aku dok bz jadi guru pengiring murid pertandingan dan kem motivasi. sekarang nih ada rest sikit sebab kertas periksa dah siap... minggu depan budak2 exam. mudah2an anak2ku ni lulus dalam subjek yang aku ajar. English is a killer subject. setiap kali keputusan keluar, aku rasa seram sejuk la... ada tak kemenjadian yang aku buat selama ni. students aku ni laa yang menjadi penanda terhadap usaha ku selama ni.

aku sekarang tengah gigih berusaha nak beli rumah. tapi masalah lagi satu nih, aku masih belum disahkan jawatan kerana aku belum lagi pergi KISSM. masalah besar kalau tahun ni aku belum lagi pergi kursus. waaa..taknak stress pasal benda nih... kita cerita pasal benda lain pulak. makin aku bercita2 nak beli umah, makin banyak laa pulak barang aku nak beli. larest, aku nak beli hp LG Optimus One, tapi tu semua dalam perancangan... tak tau lagi camne. sebenarnya dah serik pakai brand nokia. nak cuba phone lain lak. last year aku beli phone nokia n97. memang hampeh...tak tahan langsung baterinya... baru nak buat call dah mampus. kalau ambik gambar ke video ke tak pulak drain baterinya. phhone tu aku buat letak line digi aku jek... malas nak buat call guna hp tu. utk benda lain tu boleh laa...

oklah, macam merapu lak aku type panjang2 nih... nanti la aku type balik..ilang mood aku kejap bila mikirkan phone n97 aku nih... farefarren people..

Sekolah oh Sekolah!

2011-02-24T09:38:00.003+08:00

Sudah lama tidak meng'update' blog nih... gara2 sibuk dan kesihatan tidak mengizinkan menyebabkan idea tak sempat nak keluar. Sebenarnya masa ni pun idea tengah kering tapi tangan nih gatal jugak nak menaip. Well, nasib laa kertas ujian dah siap disemak sepenuhnya. Cuma nak buat SBOA je untuk murid Tahun 1-6. Perasaan ku hari ni? hmmmm.... happy sebab Alhamdulillah, hari ni gaji dah masuk...hehe...banyak benda nak kena settle... tapi yang paling penting, nak matikan setem di LHDN dan bukak fail cukai peribadi. Duit, aku malas nak pegang dulu. balik ke Kuching nanti aku settle semua.
Sekarang nih dah waktu rehat... aku bertugas laa pulak... seronok tengok budak2 nih makan tapi kesian pulak tengok makanan yang dibekalkan utk budak2 nih... dua potong kecil sosej dan nasi goreng hanya berencahkan garam dan mungkin sedikit msg... bayangkan...itu sahaja.... takde nutrisi langsung... itu laaa ragam manusia.. mesti takkan lari dengan mata duitannya.... apa salahnya jika nasi tu ditambah dengan telur dadar sepotong dan juga sedikit sayur yang berkuah... sekurang2nya mereka dihidangkan dengan nutrisi yang seimbang dan menyumbangkan kepada kesejahteraan kesihatan mereka...
Apa lagi ya! owh... minggu lepas adalah minggu yang paling sibuk sebabnya, sempena Maulidur Rasul tahun ni, aku dan beberapa rakan yang lain menyertai perarakan mewakili PPD Tatau. Bangun seawal 4pagi, aku dan 3 lagi rakan bertolak dari kuala seawal 5.30 pagi dengan keadaan hujan yang mencurah-curah. Malang sungguh aku pada shari itu kerana sebelah kasutku terjatuh ke dalam sungai semasa hendak meniti jeti ke bot.Nasib baik ada kasut spare dalam kereta. kami berempat basah kuyup dan melucukan, sampai sahaja kami di tapak kumpulan, semua memandang kami dengan pandangan kehairanan mengapa kami berempat sahaja yamg lebur. rupa2nya hujan tidak turun di bandar bintulu... kami berempat sahaja yang nampak agak ganjil di situ. tapi berkat kesabaran kami berbaloi apabila kumpulan kami mendapat tempat pertama dalam perarakan dan mendapat tempat ketiga dalam pertandingan poster.
Belum lagi hilang penat kami berarak, (sakit2 satu badan dan kaki kerana memakai kasut yang tidak sesuai dan melecet) hari Jumaat terpaksa bertugas di Stadium sebagai AJK Pertolongan Cemas. Nasib baik tiada kejadian yang serius berlaku... tough jugak budak2 team tatau nih. dah laa aku sorang je perempuan dalam kumpulan, nasib baik geng2 aku sporting semuanya. takde laa aku rasa terpinggir. 3 malam aku di bintulu sekurang2nya dapat laa berehat. Dapat la servis kereta sekali. balik di kuala pun boring jugak sebabnya TV 32" panasonic aku rosak... patutlaaa dijual dengan harga yang murah. semasa di rumah sepupu, sempat jugak tengok american idol dan lain2 cerita yang aku minat. AKU TEKAD! chewahhh!!! hari ahad, aku dengan sepupuku ke kedai elektrik dan aku berjaya membawa sebuah tv Toshiba 24". Amat ringan dan dengan selamba aku membawanya macam bawak beg baju je. Baru puas hati aku dapat menonton semua rancangan kegemaran ku. TV lama ku, walaupun ada 2 tahun warranty, sesiapa sahaja yang sanggup membantu ku membawa tv tu untuk diservis, aku jual tv tu dengan harga RM700 (harga asal RM1250)sahaja tak sampai setahun aku membelinya. siap aku belanja makan lagi... korang sanggup ke? setakat nih takde orang lagi yang sanggup hantar tv tu seberang sungai ke bintulu.... hmmmm.....
oklah...nanti aku sambung lagi...kalau ada lagi cerita yang menarik... sekarang nih aku tunggu cuti lagi... 2 minggu lagi tu...tak sabar2 lak rasanya....till then, ya! adiosss!!!

Latest Updates!

2010-11-05T20:25:00.002+08:00

hiyeeee.... lama tak update blog nih. bukan apa, sejak jadi pendidik nih memang takde masa sangat nak update blog. cerita banyak tapi tak tau mana nak mula... cuti sekolah dah semakin hampir, tapi takde feeling betul nak cuti.... mungkin org lain balik 19hb, tapi aku mungkin berangkat dr bintulu hari ahad... bukan apa.. nak kemas rumah.... basuh baju dan sarung kusyen, simpan barang...bukan sikit2 tu... kalau ditakdirkan pindah rumah... at least senang sikit nak mengangkut....
nak cuti nih, kena laa pulak tinggalkan mr gil tersayang kat btu nih... nasib ada family yang boleh mintak tolong tengok2kan....
bila citer pasal cuti sekolah, apa agaknya plan nak dibuat... tapi yang penting,hobi kesayangan ku tetap diteruskan... membaca... baru2 nih SKKT ada buat lunch party di sebuah hotel yang buruk layanannya... tapi i'm not going to talk about the hotel, but the present that i bought this year for the event. for the first time aku beli gift voucher from popular bookstore... bukan apa, as u know i'm a book lover i don't mind to share my interest to anybody... kalau ada org bagi aku gift voucher dari kedai buku, mana2 je laaa, memang aku melompat whoooossshhhhh!!!! pecah siling...hahhahaha.... well, banyak lagi aku nak citer nih tapi kena tunggu aku balik ke kuching dulu.... mungkin jugak akan marathon Gilmore Girls sampai season 7... setakat nih aku dah selesai season 2...kejap lagi nak tengok sesaon 3.... ok lah...that's all for now... till we meet again...fairfarren people...

If there's nothing missin' in my life, then why do these tears come at night...

2010-07-31T07:46:00.003+08:00

teringat zaman britney Spears ala2 innocent dulu....really like her songs...very catchy and made me wanna dance... well, now pun camtu jugak cuma sekarang takleh nak menari lebih...takut rumah guru nih runtuh. ingat lagi lagu LUCKY? well, lagu tu takde laa kena mengena ngan hidup aku sebab aku tak hidup dalam dunia kegelamouran hollywood. cuma aku suka dengan lirik yang terletak pada title entry kali ni.... honestly, sejak kebelakangan nih... the tears always come at night... dan yang palng aku tak tahan, setiap kali aku mengaji lepas Maghrib...mesti hati ku sebak... tetiba je rasa nak menangis dan terus menangis.... honestly... emotionally unstable... which make it scares the hell out of me. SUNYI, RINDU, KECEWA, PENAT, CEPAT MENGALAH...... susah betul jadi aku nih.... lagi satu aku nih memang kuat berfikir.... tarikan empathy luar pun terlalu kuat. Baru nak happy, ada lagi benda lain yang mengganggu yang menyebabkan aku terpaksa lupakan kegembiraan demi menguruskan sesuatu yang perlu diselesaikan. mana aku nak happy. baru nak happy, kena settle masalah...baru nak seronok, kena korbankan kebahagiaan... memang aku tau aku terpaksa menerima keadaan nih.... cumanya sometimes it's too much... boleh jadi sakit kalau tak pandai nak memotivasikan diri... buat masa nih...aku cuba berfikir secara positif (memang dah dari dulu dah berfikir dengan positif)... tapi kadang2 kesedihan dah tak dapat ditanggung lagi... lalu mengalir lagi airmata.... dan setiap kali itu berlaku, aku sentasa kena ingatkan diri sendiri bahawasanya, AKU HARUS TABAH!

Wow!! 6 months already???

2010-06-04T09:47:00.000+08:00

Hi!! It's been 6 months since I've been updated this blog. Now i am a full fledged teacher which is a profession that i really love and i guess i really..really love teaching. I am now teaching at a primary school in Tatau district. Really love the school although there are a lot of casualties living in a kampung area. to get there, i have to use a boat, and walk 5-10 minutes before reaching the teacher's quarters. i teach English to Year 2, 3, 5 and 6 classes. quite challenging and stressful as English language is not everyday spoken language in the community and to build their interest in English language is not that easy. i really need to motivate them (and myself) by buying them books or other materials as additional to what they have learnt everyday in school. During weekends, the children are willing to come to school just to learn EL and i feel delighted to have them here and feed their curiosities. these children need to be motivated and me as their teacher, have to be creative and innovative.

During this 6 months, tonnes of things happened. most of the journeys were not so great only a few events that i will cherish and remember for the rest of my life. this year, i finally had my convo at IPGMKTAR. my parents came but i did not have a chance to take pictures with them. but at least they came and i'm happy. most of my friends are getting married this year, and soon to have babies. really funny when people keep asking me why i dont get married.... dear people... marriage, death and birth are all in GOD's hand.... if jodoh belum sampai, how on earth am i supposed to get married. hahahahaha...... adoiii!!! ...owh..need to go know... see you in the next chapter... Daaaa!!!

My 1st Group of Students!!

2009-12-13T23:20:00.000+08:00

I kinda miss my students during 3 months practicum at SK Plaman Baki/Menaul, Serian... I was blessed to be attached to the school and the teachers are all kind and professional in their work. They helped a lot during practicum and I gained lots of experience from them while been attached there. Thank You SK PLaman Baki/ Menaul... some of the faces of SKPBM, Expects the Best!!!

Hello again....

2009-12-13T22:56:00.000+08:00

It has been a long time since I published my entry which was in September. Now, we are in the month of December, which reminds me that my age is increasing every 22nd of that month. I'll be 29 this year... (old, huh!)
I concluded this year had been the most memorable and eventful year, which:
1. I had been accepted to KPLI Jan Intake 2009 to become a trained teacher.
2. I finished my KPLI training and got credits for my results.
3. I got my chicken pox which really put me into a terrible state, I missed my chance to go through KISSM with my friends and SPP interview.
4. Posting (????)
well...these are some of the pictures on the events that took place this year...

Syawal Tiba Lagi!!!!

2009-09-21T21:26:00.000+08:00

Alhamdulillah! Hari Raya tahun ini disambut dengan meriah sekali. tahun ni aku bercuti agak lama sedikit berbanding tahun2 lepas kerana cuti kali ini mengikut KPM atau takwim sekolah. seronok tak terhingga!!! tapi yang tak seronoknya, penat sesangat especially time "berjarah" atau berziarah. Penat tang perut laa... sebu kalau open house banyak dalam satu hari. Buat masa ni aku kat rumah nenek. memang tak pernah miss laa beraya kat sini. kalau korang nak tau.. sepanjang aku hidup nih tak pernah lagi aku beraya di Kuching, rumah sendiri. Sebabnya, umah nenek aku nih kat kawasan kampung. memang meriah laa... tapi meriah lagi laa time kitorang kecik2 dulu. tahun ni aku bergambar sakan. nak tengok gambar sila ler ke facebook.,.,.,. daaaa... nanti sambung lagi, ek!

Belangsungkawa......

2009-08-25T08:55:00.000+08:00

Awal pagi ini aku dikejutkan dengan berita pemergian bapa saudara (abang kepada mama)di Johor Bahru. Telefon berdering seawal jam 6.15pagi mengkhabarkan berita pemergian arwah Pakcik Yob secara mengejut dan begitu cepat dan aku masih belum tahu puncanya. Sekali lagi aku ditinggal keseorangan di rumah. Baru tadi aku menghantar kedua ibubapaku ke lapangan terbang. Semoga segala urusan dijalankan dengan lancar dan semoga Allah SWT mencucuri rahmat ke atas rohnya.Amin.. Al-Fatihah......

updates!!

2009-08-24T22:21:00.000+08:00

I have not been updated my blog since two months ago. Well, I just went through a hectic two months of teaching practicum and still one month to go before it ends. Ramadhan month this year has been a very special month for me as we (the training teachers) will finish our practicum same week as the end of Ramadhan. So, double celebration for me!! Sucks to think that we need to have our examinations after Hari Raya. But whatever it is, I'll strive for the best passing all the subjects.

I am now on my 10 days schools break so my agenda is to check and give marks to my students' papers and submit the marks to the class teacher when the school starts again. For now, stuck here surfing internet to look for a new hobby to fill up my pass time. I am looking for the best home library (just to keep myself motivated to get my own home with a home library/office/praying room, ONE DAY!)as an inspiration. Hope that everything that I wished for may come true, Insyaallah! I'm praying hard for that.

Wish that i have something like this... i will fill it with lots and lots of books, board games, etc... can't wait to decorate my own "TERATAK ILMU"...

ok... need to find other things to... things to make me happy... till we meet again... daaaa.....

The Latest Updates!!

2009-06-19T23:42:00.000+08:00

1. Just bought Eclipse and Breaking Dawn from the Twilight Saga series... so i compeleted the set.
2. Did my car servicing... means can go far..
3. Went to my practicum school which i have been attached to.. going to teach Year 4 for English and Year 3 for P. Moral...

Just Don't Know What To Write

Goodbye Yesterday...
Hello Today.

Life of meaningless...

2009-06-11T10:06:00.000+08:00

boring...such a boring holiday ....i just cant move to do my work... not because there are no work to be done...plenty! my head is working like hell..it's just my body and soul arent there. it fells like a ferrari without petrol. you know what i mean. it's empty! i had not been driving since a month ago. i should have servicing my car this week but i'm too lazy to call up perodua to set an appointment. it's not that i dont want to...but in terms of $$$$... i have to think twice. this month until sept this year, i have to be really careful with my expenses. car petrol, photocopy, books... all.... need $$$$. I NEED MOTIVATION!!.. seriously, i need somebody to talk to. maybe i just have to wait and see... again....

whatever!!!!!

2009-06-03T08:27:00.000+08:00

i'd just read a blog by one of the so called "wonder boys" that really made me laugh until the tears came out. So funny and pathetic. read this...

"Unfortunately we lose. I felt very frustrated. For me, the groups that made to the final didn’t deserve the honour to perform during the English Language Night. Their performances were quite boring and cliché. For me “the hole in the bucket group” and “nobody’s child group” made me questioning the credibility of the judges."

I felt sorry for them not because they didnt go through the final, but 1st they must know the concept of what "Action Song" was and how'd you relate it with teaching scenario. It was not only about fun but to make it educational. "A hole in the bucket" taught EL in the song lyrics and "Nobody's child" delivered because of the moral value. Dont judge the credability of the judges, because they'd just follow the rules and regulations.

TOPSPOT DINNER IRBI 1109 (Gath 1)

2009-05-16T16:28:00.001+08:00

kenyang tapi tetap maintain ayu....

apa gik pok... dah kenyang kita bergambarlaaaa......

apa ditangga kitak org ia???

daddy, atan dan mummy

samseng sarikei tgh order makan....

tok gambar hari lain...kamek org berlimak jak... tapi tetap maintain tempat yg sama....

tarik nafas panjang2..... tahannnn..............

My biggest challenge starting next month!!

2009-05-16T16:04:00.001+08:00

Finally, i got the school's name for my practicum next month. not far from serian town but far from my house. it takes almost 1 hour from my home so i decided to rent a place near to the school. Owh!! i forgot to mention the school's name. the school is called SK Plaman Baki/Menaul. It is in a mix zone kampung and also near to #$@^ farm. The road is narrow, quite bumpy with potholes.

The school is in the estate area and not much of lighting there. Only 6 classes in the school and each Year for each class and it is a biggest challenge for me as i am going to teach ESL and as we know not all can converse well in EL. I am going to teach English as my major and Pendidikan Moral as my minor.

I had my Pendidikan Moral micro-teaching last week. My lecturer commented that i am suitable to teach Secondary school as my firmness was not gentle enough for primary students. and again my pace of talking was too fast for small children. i hope i can change that. Phewww!!! i love challenges and this is what i have to face. I love it!!! More news when i got there with my teaching partner next week... till then!!!

my next book collection

2009-04-26T15:23:00.000+08:00

My next book collection has to be the twilight saga... i'm actually really obsessed with the paranormal stories and tales. That's why i'm a big fan of The Paranormal State and The Ghost Hunters / International (Taps), and also Buffy the Vampire Slayer and Angel. Tadaaaa....!!! my first book....

My favorite karaoke/instrumental...

2009-04-19T11:14:00.000+08:00

whoever knows this song... enjoy!!!

Kehidupan ku yang teramat sibuk...

2009-04-18T00:31:00.001+08:00

lama tak update blog... bukan apa.. sebab dah terlalu sibuk... kena concentrate kat study dulu so kena sabar banyak-banyak. Nak menulis nih bukan senang, kena ada idea yang bernas baru dapat jalan cerita yang menarik. Sepanjang saya di IPTAR nih, macam-macam yang saya jumpa. Gelagat manusia, pelajaran yang baru... pendek kata, banyak benda baru yang kita perhati dan pelajari sebagai pengalaman hidup.

Penat memang laa penat... time nih laaa baru terfikir alangkah berharganya tidur itu... hehehe time selalu tak cukup tidur atau rehat boleh laa cakap camtu. kalau terlebih tido tu... tak elok pulak untuk kesihatan. Assignment memang tak putus-putus. tapi takpe janji dapat title cemerlang habis tahun nih. yang penting ilmu, beb!

sejak 2 minggu nih saya rasa frust sangat sebab keadaan toilet kat hostel teruk. dahlaaa takleh nak pakai sebab tersumbat dgn teruk, air pulak asyik kena catu... tak aci betul laa... bayangkan dah takde air start kul 7 pg sampai kul 2 ptg... dari 5 ptg sampai kul 11 malam... balik kelas kena berebut mandi dan basuh kain. lambat sikit kena mandi berkemban ala-ala mandi kat sungai gitu kat bilik membasuh pakaian...memang teruk laaa... lupa lak nak ambik gambar letak dalam blog. nantikan entry yang seterusnya nanti, k!

oklah... ngantuk dah nih. esok ada plan ngan member2 nak gi barang untuk camping bulan depan... so till next time... nite2!!!

Kehidupan Satu Perjuangan

2009-04-17T23:46:00.000+08:00

Kehidupan ini,
ada pasang dan surutnya,
ada manis dan pahitnya,
ada naik dan turunnya,
kehidupan penuh ranjau,
akan kutempuhi dengan redha...

Namun ada tikanya,
aku tekad mengharungi semua,
dengan semangat waja,
mencapai matlamat tinggi menggapai,
walau dugaannya menyiksakan,
akanku rentangi semua dengan tabah,

Sesungguhnya,
disaat aku terjatuh,
aku tetap bangun dan meneruskan perjuangan ini,
surutnya laut menanti pasang,
ku telan pahit kerana itu penawar,
ku menganjak paradigma kehidupan,
kerana ianya satu hakikat,
KEHIDUPAN SATU PERJUANGAN

Finally!!!

2009-04-10T22:53:00.000+08:00

finally i can put up video from youtube here!!! well... ehem... testing...testing...

Schools break again!!

2009-03-14T23:52:00.000+08:00

hi... while i'm typing this blog, i keep on praying on the allowance to be banked in. I am desperately need to buy books, teaching materials and so on. why keeping our money as u know we need them for teaching. to prepare us to teach. yes, we will staying at home but that doesnt mean that we dont need money. driving to school also needs money to buy patrol. my car doesnt drink water laa...
i just need 2 days rest as i feel unwell and feverish. really need the rest before SBE. owh!! the medicines start to work. need to to go to bed. adios then... nite2.

English Language Appreciation Month (ELAM) Nite!!

2009-02-28T15:47:00.001+08:00

Drum rollings......
IRBI 1109 is the OVERALL CHAMPION of ELAM 2009!!! Thank you to all colleagues of BK14 and CONGRATULATIONS everybody on your achievements!!! We got top 3 for all events except for 2 contests, but that doesn't matter.Our strong teamwork has shown that we deserve the title. We enjoyed our group's Action Song "There's A Hole In the Bucket" but sadly we got 2nd place behind robbers. I was upset bcause the robbers didnt have the original basis. 98% from the original jabbawockeez from ABDC and i strongly feels that they shouldn't get the first place. Maybe for some people they dont believe what i said but i strongly recommend they should watch from the youtube. First place should go for the orignal presentation. HOW SAD!!! Well show is just a show. The important thing is TEAMWORK!!!

thinking....and thinking... and assignments

2009-02-26T08:31:00.000+08:00

Why are there so many assignments in this whole world... but i like it... u may laugh but the fact is... i think that it is more to mind exercise. makes me think and think and think... whatever happens to me... came with rational reasons... i came back to study to be a teacher... with a reason... to teach children in schools... why teaching? for sure with a reason... only Allah knows. i used to cry everynight, thinking about work, life and everything... but now i know that every tears came out with relieve.... i became stronger, mature and wiser...
I try to stay clear from all the worries that clouded over my head. I try to think positive. I try to love other people, open up to some matters and solve problems. hope that everything is going on fine soon...
Owh!! i really have to go... i'll get back soon....with the eventful report of ELAM NITE!!!

2009-02-22T08:07:00.000+08:00

hello..... i'm back... not too long tapi sempatlah nak coret sepatah dua kata time2 cuti nih. sempat on internet kat umah je sebab wireless kat IP macam chipsmore laku. kejap ade kejap takde, tapi selalunye takde langsung. ELAM night 2009 sedang berlangsung di IPTAR and of course IRBI 1109 is the organizing member for this event. ade kengkawan yang masuk pelbagai pertandingan and myself masuk pertandingan idioms and proverbs with my darling friend, dalita. hehehe... i didnt manage to watch my colleagues's performance but luckily that they are in top 10 and will fight in semi final. i'll be back with the full result in my next update. see you then!!!

New Year, New Resolution, New Beginning..

2009-01-11T15:38:00.000+08:00

Kurang 24 jam lagi aku akan mendaftarkan diri sebagai murid/pelajar institut perguruan di Kota Samarahan. Agak risau kerana aku masih tidak dapat membayangkan keadaan sewaktu minggu pengurusan nanti. Aku berdoa agar segala urusan berjalan dengan lancar esok. My last preparation was buying a pair of black court shoes and slippers. Paling merisaukan apabila result medical check up belum lagi keluar, bermakna aku belum lagi boleh mengisi Surat Pengakuan Tidak Teribat Dengan Penyalahgunaan Dadah. Harap2 mereka dapat memberikan masa yang secukupnya untuk menguruskan segalanya. Makan dan minumku di sana?...hmmmmm rasa-rasanya minggu pengurusan nanti akan disediakan seadanya. Aku amat2 juga berharap agar kesihatan aku juga akan sentiasa baik. Kepada sahabat2ku yang membaca blog ku ini, aku mungkin akan kurang berada di ruangan friendster, facebook dan juga blog kesayangan ku ini. tapi jangan risau... i'll be back when i'm on holiday.
see ya again soon!!!

Preparation for IPTAR - KPLI 2009

2009-01-04T17:14:00.000+08:00

Eight (8) more days to go before the registering day at IPTAR. Barang2 60% dah dibeli. Masalah aku nih pasal dokumen laaa pulak. 3 kali aku call IPTAR untuk bertanyakan tentang persediaan untuk pendaftaran. Terkilan rasanya apabila para petugas di sana tidak "mesra" dengan pemanggil seperti aku. Sepatutnya jika org bertanyakan tentang pendaftaran, mereka dengan sendirinya akan memberi keterangan kepada pemanggil. Ini tidak, tanya sepuluh patah, dijawabnya sepatah. yang paling aku musykilkan ialah tentang medical checkup report dan borang2 berkenaan. Adakah aku perlu dibawa yang telah siap diisi atau ambil yang original dari IPTAR semasa pendaftaran... sebabnya masa aku call, diorang kata bawak semua dokumen yang (penting-salinan sijil yang disahkan) sahaja. yang lain2 kena ambik yang asal di IPTAR. kalau camtu, bila masa nak isinye??? Puas aku bukak forum umum untuk dapatkan tips tapi tak semua berkesan sebab yang berforum akan pergi ke IPG lain dari IPG aku. kalau ade sesiapa yang terbaca blog nih yang mempunyai maklumat tentang pendaftaran KPLI di IPTAR, tolong bagitau ye!!! TQ!!!

RESIGNATION LETTER

2008-12-30T19:54:00.000+08:00

Finally I've tendered my resignation effective 27th December 2008. Didn't get any negative comment from my bosses though... but my lady boss expected i was going to resign as i looked i was hiding something (my letter) from her. It was actually i want to give the letter by myself to Mr. Boss. I wanted to meet him myself. A Malay saying" Masuk Cara Baik, Keluar pun Cara Baik" which means " if you came to work proper, then, when you call it quit, exit with grace".... not precisely translated but almost come to that meaning. They both wishes the best of luck to me and same goes to them from me. Even though I'm officially resigned, but there are still some matters to do. They even made a joke by saying that they are hoping me to find "somebody" there. I guess they know how dedicated i was working for them until i didnt have time to look for my "partner". Hehehehe... well, no comment.
....to be continued to the next chapter......

Hadiah Hari Lahir Ke - 28... Alhamdulillah!!

2008-12-25T07:40:00.000+08:00

Assalammualaikum....

Tanggal 22hb Disember 2008, aku telah mangajak ke usia 28 tahun. well, macamana dgn sambutan hari jadi? Seperti biasa.. rutin harian... masuk kerja...buat kerja... balik kerja...kemudian lepas Maghrib ke Manhattan Fish Market di Boulevard for dinner. Nothing interesting...no changes... kadang2 itu yang membuat aku sedih sebab hidup aku terlalu monotonous.
Rupa-rupanya kesedihan aku melarat keesokkan harinya apabila salah seorang rakan sekerja membuat perancangan untuk HR Department tahun 2009. Masa tu aku begitu emo sekali. rasa nak marah ade, nak nangis pun ade (lepas tu aku nangis sorang puas2 kat dalam bilik)... nak kate bulan mengambang... lepas dah... sehari2 aku sedih... kalau korang pelik... aku lagi pelik...

My sorrow and sadness seemed to disappear when i got the result on my KPLI 2009 interview that was held in August. Alhamdulillah, I was offered to further my studies in Diploma of Education. I got English Studies as my Major. Meaning that, a step closer to become an educator..a teacher. No wonder with all my unstable feelings I had yesterday. All are blessings in disguise... I know my parents, sister and brother are all happy... i called up my dear friend Kak Ina whom i knew from my SLG course in 2006. And also to my dear friend / ex-colleague ivy...both had been my counselors and motivators while i was going through all this KPLI application process. Terima Kasih tak terhingga, Kak Ina and ivy. Jasa kalian akan saya kenang sampai bila2...
Masalah lagi satu pulak, aku nak antar surat perletakkan jawatan. Camane laa agak nya reaksi dua org boss aku tu. Takut pulak nak memikirkan. Takpe laa... yang tu sambung kat hari lain pulak... to be continued...

I'm Back!!!!

2008-12-13T18:28:00.001+08:00

Kembali dengan cerita baru... sakit belakang beransur hilang... cuma kalau duduk terlalu lama, bangun kejap lagi nak jalan akan bongkok balik. Tak berapa enjoy sangat cuti sebab dah sakit kan.... so malas nak komen. Topik yang akan diceritakan, RAGAM MANUSIA DI TEMPAT KERJA... tak payah jauh.... yang depan mata pun dah macam-macam...
Benci betul org yang hipokrit, bermuka2 dan berat sebelah. Nak citer bab kutuk org... Wah!!! Macam dia yang paling bagus... semua benda betul... cakap pun tak serupa bikin... Especially kalau hari2 dah kena mengadap sebab kerja. Depan cakap lain, belakang cakap lain... Lagi satu org yang suka cakap besar... boleh dia kate kat semua org,"Bukan nak cakap besarlah tapi......" mak aiii....habis je ayat tu, mengembang membesar bagai johan cakap dia tu.... adus.... kadang2 sampai penat dengar... sampai naik kebas telinga... nak lari dari conversation kang cakap kurang ajar kat org tua pulak... heheheh... itu citer pasal org tua.... citer pasal budak kurang matang satu pulak.... nak tulis ayat satu baris pun nak tanya kat aku. Adus... ada otak pikir laa... lain laa kalau dah susah sangat ayat tu lain laa citer... nih ayat budak tadika boleh buat pun dia tanya kat aku... apa nak jadi??? Bab nak cinta pun tanya kat aku... kalau aku nih dah kawen beranak pinak boleh laaa tanya... nih single mingle tanya kat aku pasai apa? Tak kisah laaa aku nak bagi tips sikit, tapi takkan nak tulis msg pun nak tanya kat aku...ujung2 kang sampai bab malam pertama pun nak tanya kat aku ke? Parah laaa aku kali nih... macam macam ragam la....

Ouch!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

2008-12-10T20:23:00.000+08:00

Adeh!!!! Sakit belakang aku datang balik. Pantang balik dari travelling mesti sakit camni. Time sakit dah takleh nak buat ape...duduk takleh lame, jalan macam org bongkok 3...sakit la weh... ayah aku pun dah naik bingung. Silap ari bulan nak kena bedah tapi tak diadvice oleh doktor sebab tulang dah berhenti memanjang. Nak tak nak kena jugak tanggung sakit nih... Derita, beb! Kena baring kat katil je sepatutnya, tapi gatal tangan jugak nak menaip kat komputer. Dah tak dapat nak celebrate anniversary my parents yang ke 32!!!! Happy 32nd Wedding Anniversary!!! Love U Both... MAMA & AYAH!!!! Sorry laaa anak sorang nih problem sket. Ok lah.. takleh lame.... sakit sesangat!!! Nanti dah sembuh aku sambung balik kat blog nih...

Selamat Hari Raya Aidil Adha

2008-12-09T18:00:00.000+08:00

Hi again... PENGORBANAN AIDIL ADHA
I'm back to Kuching today from Sibu since Saturday. The trip was fun cos we were convoying with Yak Man's family. I tried to have fun and enjoying my holiday but failed. On Saturday i received shocking news from my boss and i oredi on work while on holiday. Unbelievable!!!! I should have taken my leave and go out from Malaysia or at least Sarawak. My bosses seemed to forget that i'm on leave and not even in Kuching. What i can help was coordinate from Sibu. Hilarious but SAD and UPSET!!! and I hate the fact that today when i was just arrived home for a few minutes, my boss called me to remind other staff to bring newspaper to their (bosses's) home. Another sick joke!!!! I was doing my work 24/7 including on my leave!!!! I think that is the PENGORBANAN that I'm doing for this company. If my bosses didn't see this, i don't know... i have no comment! Hope that i would go for another job that would appreciate me more. I have to be patience. Hope i got the job and career that i longed for the whole of my life.
and I'm OUT!

Jagalah Kesihatan Anda....

2008-11-29T21:32:00.001+08:00

Tak tau laa kenapa dalam tahun nih, tahap kesihatan semakin menurun. Mungkin terlalu penat atau terlalu stress atau cuaca tidak menentu. It has been a downfall for me in health lately that really makes me tired. Now i feel that age is really catching up...FAST!... even my parents look healthier than me. Need a holiday? Not in my shoes. Kadang2 cemburu jugak tengok rakan sekerja lain bercuti panjang, kadang kala sampai seminggu lebih. And me?? paling lama pun stakat nih 3 hari. Nak ambik 5 hari (boss dah approve ari tu!)pun fikir dua tiga kali jugak sebab rasa2nya buat masa nih banyak benda nak kena buat. But honestly for me, selagi kalau dalam cuti masih ada di tanah Sarawak... bukan holiday namanya. Camane nak buat.. Hate the fact!!!!!
Thinking of going to Bali..... dont know when. Depends on money... Tak aci laa tengok org lain pergi oversea holiday berminggu2 sedangkan I just see them enjoying their holidays. Sampai bila nak sacrifice utk org lain sedangkan diri sendiri yang terkorban. But really, is there anyone really care on how i feel? I dont think so...

Birthday Again!!!

2008-11-26T19:34:00.000+08:00

Your Birthdate: December 22

You tend to be understated and under appreciated.

You have a hidden force to do amazing things, doing them your own way.

People may see you as strange and shy, but they know little.

Your unconventional ways have more power than they (and even you) know.

Your strength: Standing up for what you know is true

Your weakness: You tend to be picky and rigid

Your power color: Silver

Your power symbol: Square

Your power month: April

What Does Your Birth Date Mean?

Happy Birthday To Me!!!!!.....

2008-11-26T19:30:00.000+08:00

Your Birth Month is December

You love life and exude an outgoing, cheerful vibe.

Blessed with a great sense of humor, you can laugh at adversity.

Your soul reflects: Celebration, success, and wealth

Your gemstone: Blue Topaz

Your flower: Narcissus

Your colors: Indigo, green, and blue-green

What Does Your Birth Month Mean?

My Fairy Name....

2008-11-19T18:33:00.000+08:00

Your fairy is called Berry Rainbowweb

She is a fortune bringer.

She lives in fruit orchards and vineyards.

She is only seen in the mist of an early morning.

She wears red, cerise and purple berry colours. She has multicoloured wings like a butterfly.

Get your free fairy name here!

Me and My Love - Reading...hahahah

2008-11-04T20:13:00.000+08:00

Finally, i've bought the last edition of Harry Potter Series last Saturday and i also bought Garden Spells by Sarah Addison Allen. Very interesting book. Hard to put it down..Magical and funny!!!my kind of book though.

off topic:
i've found my long lost pen pal, Sue. we actually met in chatting room and we wrote to each other letters while we were studying. I was in Kota Bahru and UPM Serdang at that time. Another friend, Akim... still waiting for his respond to my msg in his fs.

Miss You Guys...

2008-10-31T08:00:00.001+08:00

Lama tak update blog, rasa2 nya dah nak dekat sebulan. Maklumlah lepas raya bz sesangat. tak sempat je nak singgah. Lagipun, baru sembuh dari sakit tapi still kena jaga2 supaya sakit tak berulang lagi. Stay healthy!!! Doktor suruh buat YOGA... for goodness sake... i will not do IT! hehehe sebabnye YOGA boring laaa..... I like something fast like dance routine. YOGA will make me go ..zzzzzzzzzzzzzz...heheheh...

Last week i went through my old letters given by my dear...dear friends when i was still studying. ada yang memang satu kolej/universiti... ada yang kawan chatting.... there are few friends yang masih lagi still contact through YM and Friendster... tapi yang lain2... cuma dengar khabar berita dari jauh je. sebak ade... senyum sorang2 bila baca surat-surat tu. I really miss them now...really deep in my heart. I really miss my friends from Kolej Utama Kelantan and my online friends as I am still in contact with my Universiti Putra Malaysia friends.

UPDATES:
I'd just finished my old letters organized, except for nak beli file, susun gambar dan buat notes. Believe that my mom suruh buang!!! no way!!! Never!! hargailah setiakawan sungguhpun sekarang dah lost contact. Insyallah jika diizinkan Tuhan, akan dipertemukan jua dengan rakan2 seperjuangan dahulu.

Nostalgia di Aidilfitri

2008-10-03T23:31:00.000+08:00

Terkenang semasa kecil, kemeriahan aidilfitri lebih bermakna. Tibanya malam raya, ahli-ahli surau dan masjid kampung berkumpul dan berarak menggunakan kenderaan bertakbir raya di sekeliling kampung. Masa tu, kami (dengan sepupu-sepupu)yang masih kecil menunggu di jendela disaat takbir raya dialunkan dan berlari dari bahagian depan rumah hingga ke dapur melihat perarakan takbir. Lebih meriah lagi semua ahli keluarga adik beradik ayah balik beraya di rumah Nek Mak. Penuh bilik! Kaum adam (kecuali yang masih bayi) tidur di luar bilik. Kami tidur lewat membantu memasak, membuat kuih dan menghias untuk sambutan aidilfitri keesokkan harinya. Terasa hubungan ikatan persaudaraan masa tu amat rapat sekali. Yang paling rindu, main bunga api dan mercun.
Namun kini, semua tinggal kenangan. Sudah lima tahun perarakan Takbir di malam raya tidak berkumandang. Kami sepupu yang ramai ada yang sudah berkahwin dan mempunyai keluarga sendiri, jarang balik bersama untuk memeriahkan lagi suasana aidilfitri. Kita terpaksa terima hakikat bahawa kita berubah setelah dewasa. Bukan apa, kesian dengan sepupu yang msih kecil tidak sempat melihat kemeriahan seperti itu lagi. Hanya mendengar cerita dari kami yang lebih dewasa.
Bila dikenang, kesayuan bersarang dihati. Kerinduan menyambut Aidilfitri tidak lagi semeriah dahulu. Janjiku pada diri sendiri. Selagi kampungku masih kukuh di Kampung Hilir, Sibu.. selagi itu aku akan menyambutnya di situ.

Yea!!Yea!! Esok Raya!!

2008-09-30T18:58:00.000+08:00

Finally, we arrived in Sibu at 11.15am. We departed from Kuching exactly 6 am. First time sampai di Sibu dalam masa lebih kurang 5 jam sebabnya bulan nih bulan puasa dan tak perlu berhenti break. Meriah sungguh di hari raya kerana sanak dan saudara berkumpul merayakan hari yang bahagia ini. Tahun nih, my family and family Yak Man balik beraya hari pertama. Seronoknya sebab our youngest cousin dah tak takut org dan sungguh manja. Tapi terkenang kembali zaman kanak-kanak lagi laaa meriah. Semua keluarga balik raya sekali. Nak runtuh rumah dibuatnya. Alhamdulillah Nek Mak masih lagi sihat walaupun sudah mencapai usia 95 tahun. Every year celebrating with her means so much to our family. What i dont really like... well, bunyi mercun. Bila laa depa nih nak bertaubat??? Rasa nak beraya seminggu di Sibu. Tolong my aunties buat kuih. Unfortunately, we have to be back to Kuching pada Hari Raya Ketiga. Esok nak raya, so malam nih nak kena tolong finalize preparation. Baju nak kena gosok. Have to sambung later. Kepada sahabat-sahabatku yang sentiasa menyokong perjuangan hidupku, SELAMAT HARI RAYA AIDILFITRI... MAAF ZAHIR DAN BATIN... TULUS IKHLAS DARIKU NOWRA ASHODA...

Well... so like me... hehehehe!!!!

2008-09-16T21:08:00.000+08:00

What Your Handbag Says About You

You tend to be relaxed throughout the day. You are naturally at peace.

You tend to be relaxed but alert. You keep your eye out for anything unusual.

You are a low maintenance person. You can adapt to a variety of situations.

You are practical and down to earth. You tend to be a rather reserved and quiet person.

You are a very unique and special person. There's no one else who is anything like you.

What Does Your Handbag Say About You?

Ujian Itu Untukku....

2008-09-13T16:14:00.001+08:00

What is happening with me nowadays????!!! Mungkin ditakdirkan kegembiraan hanya sementara, sebagai dugaan... lebih2 lagi di bulan yang penuh keberkatan. I just take it as positive as i can. What happened to me within these two months benar2 menguji ketahanan imanku. Kadang2 aku terkedu, begitu kuat dugaan yang menimpa, namun aku tetap cuba berdiri. Tiada siapa di kanan dan kiriku, melainkan AKU.... tapi entah sampai bila mampu aku bertahan.
Penat lelahku, ada siapa yang tahu?... ada siapa yang menghargai?.... biarlah apa mereka kata.... bukan simpati yang kupinta tapi hanya memahami... biarkan aku dengan ruang damaiku.... biarkan aku jatuh deras... biarkan aku bangun sendiri, dengan luka dan parah... namun seandainya azimat itu gugur tersembam... jangan salahkan ku.... kerana itu lah caraku, belajar dari kesilapan... belajar dari kesusahan...
Hidupku bukan senang, hidupku bukan mewah.... hanya sebagai penyeri alam. Terpulang kepada tangan-tangan itu meghargai. Ceriaku adalah lakonan.... musibahku adalah kenyataan... Terpulang padaku untuk menerimanya, kerana Ujian Itu Untukku.....

Hehehehehe....

2008-09-06T13:53:00.000+08:00

You are a Brainy Girl!

Whether you're an official student or a casual learner, you enjoy hitting the books.

You know a little bit about everything, and you're always dying to know more.

For a guy to win your heart, he's got to share some of your intellectual interests.

A awesome book collection of his own doesn't hurt either!

What Kind of Girl Are You?

My Favorite Actors

2008-08-31T21:31:00.001+08:00

Mr. Johnny Depp

Ms. Nicole Kidman

Justin Timberlake and Britney Spears

2008-08-31T19:07:00.000+08:00

I just saw both of them on youtube (old Vidz!) and guess what??? I CRIED!!! I like the songs Cry Me A River by JT and Everytime by BS. Like they sang for and meant for each other. They still have the vibe and chemistry in the eyes of their fans. They look sooooo sweet together. Awwww!!!! Don't boo me coz i like them both as I like the way they dances and their songs are catchy. I have the vidz collection of both of them together but i couldn't embedded it here. Some technical error or i still need to set up setting so that i can put the vidz here. So, in the meanwhile, try to find those songs from youtube. Enjoy!!!

That's Me!!! and My Favorite Colour!!!

2008-08-28T20:53:00.000+08:00

GREEN

You are a very calm and contemplative person. Others are drawn to your peaceful, nurturing nature.

Find out your color at QuizMeme.com!

My kind of flower......

2008-08-28T20:14:00.000+08:00

I am a
Daffodil

What Flower
Are You?

You have a sunny disposition and are normally one of the first to show up for the party. You don't need too much attention from the host once you get there as you are more than capable of making yourself seen and heard.

MY LOVE... My Heritage

2008-08-27T19:15:00.000+08:00

Lama tak tulis dalam blog nih. Rindu la pulak! Well, topik ari nih ... people's first impression of me.
1. Heeee.... first, orang akan kate me sombong.... ayat wajib,"aih, first impression mek nangga kitak lawa, eh". (lawa dalam bahasa Sarawak means Sombong). Hahahaha..... i admit that i am shy, quiet and timid. i guess that's why they thought me sombong. I guess my friends and my colleagues knows me better than my family. It's just i am a very serious person but at the same time i can make spontaneous joke as long it is necessary and appropriate. i feel irritated with stupid and sarcastic jokes.

2. whenever i went for a course, exam, interview, etc... a must question pop up is," U orang malaya/semenanjung ka?" Do i look like one? How can they see the differences??HAHAHAHAHAHA...... I'M HALF SARAWAK - SEMENANJUNG/MALAYA.... mom from Johore, dad from Sarawak. dialect at home - ROJAK. Frankly, i feel proud as what i am. one of the strengths as a half breed, we got to learn other dialects. sometimes, my mom and i talked Northern at home. influence from my mum's mum i guess. u see, my grandma was from Taiping, Perak. i made friends from all over malaysia when i was doing my bachelor degree at UPM. Even my best friends are from Johore and Penang. It is not that when i make friends from other states, i am not a sarawakian. it is just that at that time, there were no sarawakian in my class.

3. people always thought that i am (look) older than my sister. Actually i always think positive considered myself mature and wiser than my sis. You can always ask my family about that *wink* *wink*...
Well folks, that's all about me.... MY LOVE, MY HERITAGE....

Boring Sunday!!! What's Next????

2008-08-03T16:08:00.000+08:00

I Hate Mondays!!!... i really don't know what to say. I supposed to study on something but I'm too eager to write this first. My life has been always the boring one. Friends and colleagues would ask me why not going out and have some fun?? Well guys, thanx for your concern but going out with me is a hell of boring one. Too much going out without any intention are costly. My pay cheque is not up to that extend yet. There's a lot of things i have to prepare for my future. I am obsessed with what's going on in the internet right now. Games, movies, youtube... everything!!! I went to http://www.lverose.com/ and i found my wish gift list. Hahahahahah..... get the point??? Everything inside is what i have always wanted.... well a part of it. You see, i am not a happy person.... outside...COOL!!! inside....BLUE.... God knows why.... i don't have to share the reasons with anybody. I'll just wait for a charming knight to rescue me.... when, who, how, why.... only HE knows!!! Patience on waiting for the day though....
Now, enjoy the poetry i had received for the 5th place in English poem recital competition in 1994....

A WET SHEET AND A FLOWING SEA
(Alan Cunningham)

A wet sheet and a flowing sea,

A wind that follows fast,

And fills the white and rustling sail

And bends the gallant mast.

And bends the gallant mast, my boys,

While, like the eagle free,

Away the good ship flies, and leaves

Old England on the lee.

Oh, for a soft and gentle wind,

I heard a fair one cry:

But give to me the snoring breeze

And white waves heaving high.

And white waves heaving high, my lads,

A good ship, tight and free,

The world of waters is our home,

And merry men are we.

There's tempest in yon horned moon,

And lightning in yon cloud;

And hark the music, mariners!

The wind is piping loud.

The wind is piping loud, my boys,

The lightning flashes free;

While the hollow oak our palace is,

Our heritage the sea.

Latest Collection .... My Love, My Book

2008-08-02T21:02:00.000+08:00

Here are my latest collection from "Little Black Dress Books" publisher. I am trying to buy one book from each authors ... but my favorite at the moment is Singletini from Amanda Trimble. Cheers and enjoy!!!!

My Love....My Favorite Movie (series actually!)....No.1

2008-08-02T20:33:00.000+08:00

First of all... i can't stop talking about my favorite tv movies... ANNE OF GREEN GABLES, ANNE OF GREEN GABLES:THE SEQUELS & ANNE OF GREEN GABLES:THE CONTINUING STORY.... WOW!! What can i say.... since i was in primary school. Everything is about that ANNE... an orphan from Nova Scotia, Canada... adopted by elderly siblings from Prince Edward Island.... Fiction though... but interesting... I am so into that until i printed out the scripts, dowloaded the movies from internet...decorated my office PC wallpaper with characters from that movies. maybe because i like the character of Anne: a dreamer, stubborn, smart, funny.... I like her strong will to become a respectful person at the end of the stories. Her beautiful friendship with Diana, Marilla and Matthew. Her love for Gilbert (well Gilbert also very much in love with her first!).... she didn't know what love is until Gil fell ill with typhoid and she feels like she can never live without him, not at least until she must reveals her true feelings for him. Fortunately for Anne, Gilbert recovered quickly from his illness and they live happily ever after.... here are some avatar i've found....

My Love!!!

2008-07-20T20:12:00.000+08:00

GOTCHA!!!!

Salam Semua!!!

Amboi!! Kalau aku letak my love semua nak tau siapa jejaka my love tu.. ye tak? Saje je.... semua benda aku letak My Love. Macam cantik pulak ayat tu. Buku aku..MY LOVE.... kereta aku.... MY LOVE.... my family.... LAGI LA MY LOVE ETERNITY!!!! heheheeh....

Meh laaa aku citer pasal hobi aku. MY LOVE...MY BOOKS!!! Aku nih minat sangat laaa membaca. memang dari kecik. Ayah aku selalu bawak pergi kedai buku atau state library (lama) sebab nak galakkan kami adik beradik suka membaca. Sampai la ni aku minat sangat buku. Tapi satu je laaa.... aku suka buku dalam BI. Aku bukan anti novel BM tapi rata2nya cerita yang sama dan dapat agak ape ending nya. tapi buku pertama yang aku jadikan koleksi ialah.. "Tidurlah Intan". Tak ingat pulak sampai siri berapa. tapi yang pastinya aku dengan rela hati dan ikhlas telah mendermakan buku2 tersebut ke Persatuan Bulan Sabit Merah. Kakak aku suka kumpul buku siri penyiasatan. Yang tu masih lagi kat umah. Kakak aku tak nak buang. Bagi aku kalau bab ilmu aku suka sedekah je.

Sekarang aku suka kumpul buku bahasa Inggeris. Takde pulak rasanya buku aku dalam BM. Bab BM aku serahkan kat kakak aku. Yang pastinya aku ade koleksi buku Fear Street, Harry Potter, Anne of Green Gables, English Lit, dan yang paling latest aku tengah kumpul buku2 keluaran A Little Black Dress Book. Koleksi Fear Street (nukilan R.L. Stine) lama dah tak beli sebab dah takde dalam pasaran. Koleksi tulisan L.M. Montgomery pun susah nak cari cos kurang dalam pasaran. Koleksi nukilan hebat J.K. Rowling tinggal buku Harry Potter and The Deathly Hollows je yang belum beli sebab belum keluar yang paperback. Nak beli yang hardcover mahal sangat.

So kalau korang tau mana nak cari lagi buku2 yang aku sebutkan kat atas tu, tolong khabarkan berita kat kite ye.... sebab nak lengkapkan koleksi.

Oklah... ade masa sambung lagi. Nanti nak sambung MY LOVE yang lain pulak.

Q-XPLORERACE 2008!!

2008-07-20T19:48:00.000+08:00

Salam semua!!!

Sedar tak sedar dah seminggu tak ziarah blog nih. Bukan ape...bz memanjang ngan kerja. Patutlaaa aku tak kawen2 lagi , cik kiah oiiiii!!!!

Semalam (dari hari aku tulis blog nih), myself, and 3 of my collegues join Q-Xplorerace 2008 yang dijemput (wah!!! jemputan khas gitu!) oleh MPC. Berchenta jugak laaaa nak pergi. Maklumlah, bulan nih cuti sabtu aku semua burn gara2 ade aktiviti rasmi. tak puas rehat. sakit lagi ade. aku sampai kat Padang Merdeka jam 6:45pagi. tengok kat area padang tu merah je.... semua pakai t-shirt dan topi yang sama. musykil jugak aku... alamak!!! depa dah rancang ke nak pakai baju ape. Dahlaaa hari jumaat tu sorang pun tak turun dengar briefing kat MPC. Gara-gara seorang ahli pasukan tu yang ditugaskan untuk mendengar taklimat tak turun, maka dengan resminya beliau disingkirkan dari pasukan. (Tu leee.... kena kat salah orang laaa beb!!!!) Nasib ade bidan terjun jadi pengganti untuk cukupkan ahli. Respect aku kat ko, NYAH!!!! KELESSSSS!!!!!

Kat atas padang berjumpa pulak ngan ahli2 kumpulan aku yang terdiri daripada Kak Sandra, Chris ngan Nyah. oooopsss "Nita"!!! hehehe.. lepas daftar kena tukar baju t-shirt merah menyala, topi merah menyala dan nombor pasukan. Aku tabik spring ngan MPC... cara anjuran tu memang PRO... kalau ade game camtu lagi jangan lupa jemput kitorang lagi ye!!!! Sarapan pagi ngan tengahari disediakan. lepas sarapan, aktiviti dimulakan dengan chicken dance. aku tak lalu nak menari oiii.... tangan penuh ngan kertas, tak dan nak mengepak. tapi memang cute laaa dance tu. Lain kali janji tak malu-malu lagi. tepat jam 8.30 pagi, kitorang dilepaskan mencari klu berdasarkan tulip yang diberi. Soalan mencabar. tapi aku sebenarnya dah tau selok belok mainan ni sebab ayah aku dah selalu jadi penganjur dan peserta. so pengalaman dia laaa yang aku pakai. heheeheh.... tapi bagi team aku, tak menang takpe janji enjoy. Nasib hari tak panas. tapi letih berjalan. naik bukit turun bukit. akhirnya tepat jam 10:25 pagi kitorang sampai ke garisan penamat. Punyalah letih sampai nak duduk kemain sakit lagi. Dah laaa aku nih ade masalah sakit tulang belakang. berasa siot!! hari nih, kaki aku sakit giler. susah je rasa nak jalan. tapi aku dah biasa sakit2 nih. sungguhpun kitorang tak menang ape2 tapi puas hati sebab dapat menyudahkan perjalanan cari harta karun. hilang penat sebab kitorang SEMEMANGNYA ENJOYYYYY!!!!!!

Me, Myself and I

2008-07-12T14:54:00.000+08:00

Hi again!!! today is Saturday and i just got home from work. Quite hectic but interesting. talking about a job, i really need something that is more challenging, in control and professional. well, i love to work with professional people. people always see me as a serious person. try to make friend with me, then you'll know. i'm quite secretive and quiet. and i like peaceful environment. I DON'T Like people who don't know the word RESPECT. RESPECT PEOPLE AND THEMSELVES... Be a good person, respect your neighbour. Insan yang tidak menghormati orang lain akan sentiasa hidup kesusahan. Percayalah!!!

What a Life!!

2008-07-10T12:47:00.000+08:00

My favourite quote is " Love is like a beautiful butterfly, hold it tight it dies, hold it loose it flies away. Appreciate love when it comes to you". What do you think? Dalam sesuatu perhubungan itu, yang penting chemistry mesti ada. I do believe in love tapi tak salah seandainya mengambil masa yang lama demi mencapai kebahagian itu. Kita berpasangan dan diakhiri dengan ikatan pernikahan adalah untuk selamanya. Tidak ada manusia di sunia ini dilahirkan sempurna. Perhubungan yang indah itu mesti ada kontrasnya. Tidak semestinya seiringan dan sama. Yang penting adalah KEIKHLASAN dan KEPERCAYAAN terhadap pasangan masing-masing. Cahaya kebahagian nan sentiasa menerangi seandainya kesabaran mengisi jiwa.

My Love...

2008-07-09T07:19:00.000+08:00

Setiap orang mempunyai hobi yang pelbagai. But for me, I like collecting things such as bookmark, script from my favorite movies, download favorite movies which they are hard to find here.... well, sampaikan i file everything from my car loan bank deposit receipt, to that extend from the day one i booked and purchase my car. I like to be organized. I live with my dreams in me. Salah satunya mempunyai rumah sendiri yang mempunyai bilik bacaan (house library) dan bilik solat. Tak salah bermimpi, kan. Mimpi juga salah satu perkara postif asalkan bukan angan2 mat jenin.

i wish one day when i have my dream home so that i can "paint" my home right. teratur dan tersusun. Malay tradisional with a little bit of English cottage essence. Wow!!! Well, let it be my target of life...

GTG, my work is waiting for me... adios

My ShAdOw...

2008-07-08T21:31:00.000+08:00

The Middle Child

The middle child has many of the characteristics of the second child but is often plagued by feelings of parental neglect, inadequacy and inferiority. Middle children tend to crave demonstrations of affection, a sign of insecurity. They often have difficulty defining a personality for themselves in relationship to the other siblings that will give them the attention and affection they need.
It is difficult for the middle child to establish a strong power base in the family. They tend to feel they are not loved as much and can never be better than their other siblings at any thing they try. Many middle children in their "striving for superiority" do find a unique way to become "center stage" at times and develop unique talents. Often however they still do not feel as important or valued as their other siblings.

Well, terpulang pada sesiapa yang mempercayainya. Bagiku, semuanya satu suratan dan kebetulan. Terima kasih buat sahabat-sahabatku yang memahami diri ini. Hanya Allah SWT yang dapat membalas budi baik kalian. Kepada sesiapa yang tidak sudi mengenaliku, terima kasih... sepintas perkenalan kita mungkin ada hikmah disebalik perpisahan itu.