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hiyeeee.... lama tak update blog nih. bukan apa, sejak jadi pendidik nih memang takde masa sangat nak update blog. cerita banyak tapi tak tau mana nak mula... cuti sekolah dah semakin hampir, tapi takde feeling betul nak cuti.... mungkin org lain balik 19hb, tapi aku mungkin berangkat dr bintulu hari ahad... bukan apa.. nak kemas rumah.... basuh baju dan sarung kusyen, simpan barang...bukan sikit2 tu... kalau ditakdirkan pindah rumah... at least senang sikit nak mengangkut....
nak cuti nih, kena laa pulak tinggalkan mr gil tersayang kat btu nih... nasib ada family yang boleh mintak tolong tengok2kan....
bila citer pasal cuti sekolah, apa agaknya plan nak dibuat... tapi yang penting,hobi kesayangan ku tetap diteruskan... membaca... baru2 nih SKKT ada buat lunch party di sebuah hotel yang buruk layanannya... tapi i'm not going to talk about the hotel, but the present that i bought this year for the event. for the first time aku beli gift voucher from popular bookstore... bukan apa, as u know i'm a book lover i don't mind to share my interest to anybody... kalau ada org bagi aku gift voucher dari kedai buku, mana2 je laaa, memang aku melompat whoooossshhhhh!!!! pecah siling...hahhahaha.... well, banyak lagi aku nak citer nih tapi kena tunggu aku balik ke kuching dulu.... mungkin jugak akan marathon Gilmore Girls sampai season 7... setakat nih aku dah selesai season 2...kejap lagi nak tengok sesaon 3.... ok lah...that's all for now... till we meet again...fairfarren people...

If there's nothing missin' in my life, then why do these tears come at night...

teringat zaman britney Spears ala2 innocent dulu....really like her songs...very catchy and made me wanna dance... well, now pun camtu jugak cuma sekarang takleh nak menari lebih...takut rumah guru nih runtuh. ingat lagi lagu LUCKY? well, lagu tu takde laa kena mengena ngan hidup aku sebab aku tak hidup dalam dunia kegelamouran hollywood. cuma aku suka dengan lirik yang terletak pada title entry kali ni.... honestly, sejak kebelakangan nih... the tears always come at night... dan yang palng aku tak tahan, setiap kali aku mengaji lepas Maghrib...mesti hati ku sebak... tetiba je rasa nak menangis dan terus menangis.... honestly... emotionally unstable... which make it scares the hell out of me. SUNYI, RINDU, KECEWA, PENAT, CEPAT MENGALAH...... susah betul jadi aku nih.... lagi satu aku nih memang kuat berfikir.... tarikan empathy luar pun terlalu kuat. Baru nak happy, ada lagi benda lain yang mengganggu yang menyebabkan aku terpaksa lupakan kegembiraan demi menguruskan sesuatu yang perlu diselesaikan. mana aku nak happy. baru nak happy, kena settle masalah...baru nak seronok, kena korbankan kebahagiaan... memang aku tau aku terpaksa menerima keadaan nih.... cumanya sometimes it's too much... boleh jadi sakit kalau tak pandai nak memotivasikan diri... buat masa nih...aku cuba berfikir secara positif (memang dah dari dulu dah berfikir dengan positif)... tapi kadang2 kesedihan dah tak dapat ditanggung lagi... lalu mengalir lagi airmata.... dan setiap kali itu berlaku, aku sentasa kena ingatkan diri sendiri bahawasanya, AKU HARUS TABAH!

Wow!! 6 months already???

Hi!! It's been 6 months since I've been updated this blog. Now i am a full fledged teacher which is a profession that i really love and i guess i really..really love teaching. I am now teaching at a primary school in Tatau district. Really love the school although there are a lot of casualties living in a kampung area. to get there, i have to use a boat, and walk 5-10 minutes before reaching the teacher's quarters. i teach English to Year 2, 3, 5 and 6 classes. quite challenging and stressful as English language is not everyday spoken language in the community and to build their interest in English language is not that easy. i really need to motivate them (and myself) by buying them books or other materials as additional to what they have learnt everyday in school. During weekends, the children are willing to come to school just to learn EL and i feel delighted to have them here and feed their curiosities. these children need to be motivated and me as their teacher, have to be creative and innovative.

During this 6 months, tonnes of things happened. most of the journeys were not so great only a few events that i will cherish and remember for the rest of my life. this year, i finally had my convo at IPGMKTAR. my parents came but i did not have a chance to take pictures with them. but at least they came and i'm happy. most of my friends are getting married this year, and soon to have babies. really funny when people keep asking me why i dont get married.... dear people... marriage, death and birth are all in GOD's hand.... if jodoh belum sampai, how on earth am i supposed to get married. hahahahaha...... adoiii!!! ...owh..need to go know... see you in the next chapter... Daaaa!!!